if everyone else jumped off a bridge, would you?

so everyone else is blogging now, why the hell shouldn't i. although i'm fairly sure that i have about 10 blogs started somewhere or another that i never actually keep up with, so at this point what's one more .. really.

i 'googled' myself the other day (if you've never done that, you really should). i learned in the googling that my 'online' persona/avatar/alter ego.. whatever you'd like to call her, is MUCH more famous/popular/'out there' than my 'offline'/real/non-avatar person. so then i started thinking about that.

is it because 'micala' is much more outgoing than shannon? is micala more artistic/creative/aware than shannon is? because damn, this micala chick is EVERYWHERE and she doesn't even TRULY exist other than as a created part of who *i* am.

i think i'm jealous of my own persona. wtf.